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maybe d song is quite old already but it sure gave a same sensation as before.. :P still until today, the argument between pak lah n tun det hasn't been settled yet.. i believe whuteva method they are using now is not appropriate... go and sit down arrr.. lotsa things both of you must discuss... maybe 15 months is not enuff to train the predecessor but a simple follow up might do it ... come on both of you.. dun hold your grudges against each other.. try not to be so childish and hiding in your own shadow... i dare you.....

posted by SyaHrIR at 8:17 AM | 0 Comments

Ganjaran RM10k sekiranya anda pendakwah dan sanggup berkahwin dgn gadis Org Asli seterusnya menetap di kawasan pedalaman … Morally wrong but ethically/legally right.. secara moralnya, kenapa nk sediakan duit sbyk tuh utk dijadikan ganjaran.. bknkah perkahwinan itu adalah sunnnah Rasullullah yang akan diberikan ganjarannya kelak?? Secara etikanya lak, mgkin dgn cara yg radikal ini bilangan org Asli yang akan memeluk Islam bertambah dan yg telah memeluk Islam akan dapat mempertahankannya.. urmm skali lagi perkara2 mcm nih betterla dibuat penilaian secara individu.. xder saper2 yang bley halang/paksa.. tiada paksaan kan dalam agama... Sejak 2 menjak nih makin heboh ttg isu2 kahwin nih.. dr misharnyalah, poligami mudahlah, kahwin koboi lah, Siti dan Datuk Klah dan sampailah part yg nih.. mengapalah kita masih berfikiran di peringkat lokal lagi.. di manakah idea2 kita utk bersama2 memajukan diri dan Negara nih? Byk agenda yg x jelas dan masih kabur2 lagi yg perlu diperjelaskan.. org Malaysia umumnya dan melayu khususnya masih berminat utk bercerita ttg perkara2 remeh yg xkan membina minda nih… salah satu sbb mengapa kita x mampu nk berdiri sama tinggi duduk sama rendah dgn org2 sbelah barat sana… kenapa kita x ikut style barat yg suka jaga tepi kain org yg bagi aku mmg ada kebaikannya (walaupun lebih byk buruk).. sekurang2nya diorg dpt belajar sesuatu dari bangsa lain.. disebabkan pemimpin diorg sibuk nk kaco2 Iran, pengetahuan rakyatnya ttg Iran pn makin bertambah.. begitu jugalah ttg kejadian 9/11 tuh.. disebabkan US sibuk2 tuduh Islam pengganasler, makin ramai rakyat dia peluk Islam.. semua disebabkan diorg suka buat benda jahat tanpa memikirkan kesan2 secara mental dan fizikalnya kepada rakyat diorg.. Mgkin lepas nih, Malaysia boleh start buat secara kecil2an dulu dgn negara2 maju di sekitar kita… Dulu masa kes ‘scenic bridge’ yg dibatalkan tu, dh ada org yg berminat nk tahu sejarah penubuhan Malaysia dan mengapa Singapura dikeluarkan dari Tanah Melayu… bagus tuh, sekurang2nya generasi2 sekarang nih dah boleh pk jauh lagi dr yang nmpk di mata.. :) lopeh nih, bolehlah kita sibuk2lak ngan Brunei ke, Hong Kong ke.. mana tahu ada peluang yg jauh terbuka utk kita di masa akan dtg.. kerjasama strategik boleh mempercepatkan kemajuan 50% - 70% dari kebiasaannya….:)

posted by SyaHrIR at 8:40 AM | 0 Comments

alhamdulillah.. thank you Allah for giving a pleasure to once again feel alive... i hope my rejuvenation is completed at d rite time.. too many things to be done in too little time...:)

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Ujian adalah tarbiyyah dr Allah.. apakah kitakan sabar ataupun sebaliknya… urmm some of you might have listen to this portion of nasheed sometimes ago.. smlm I’ve got a very awkward email from my frenz (if u can say that).. It really make my day a little bit off road after receiving the email.. after some muhasabah session wif my own thought. It seems like I need to redefine my whole relationship thing once again to clarify the misunderstanding.. thank you for reminding me my fren
X banyak benda yg berubah dlm 2 3 menjak nih… keidopan aku pn dh makin kurang spicenyer.. I need samtin to rejuvenate my spirit back.. tonite, I’m heading back to Pilah to spend some quality time wif my family.. Good news is my Kak Long is 2 month old pregnant.. congrats along .. I hope u’ll be blessed with soleh/solehah kid/daughter.. :) this wiken I’ll try to do meracun thingy in my mom’s kebun getah and my grandma’s kebun durian.. I must finish up this task b4 this Sunday… really need something to get off this burden quickly…

posted by SyaHrIR at 12:50 PM | 0 Comments

Alhamdulillah.. semalam aku attend majlis penyampaian anugerah pelajar cemerlang tajaan MARA 2006 dan dpt sijil+hadiah iringan .. mmg x sangka tp kalo dh rezeki tuh, mmg akan dpt..:) menyorot balik kisah aku sambung study nih mmg agak melucukan sbb rasanya x pernah terpk pn nk further study kt ovc in d near future.. bermula dgn penghantaran borang yg agak lewat.. hampir2 tamat tarikh tutupnyer.. kalo x silap aku sehari sblm kot .. dgn borang yg x lengkap, aku tawakal jer.. masa tuh bln 12 2004.. bln 4 tuh dpt surat temuduga.. masa tuh mmg x buat apa2 persediaan pn hatta universiti pn masih belum dipilih… :) dan x disangka2, bln 5 tuh aku terima berita yg menggembirakan, permohonanku diluluskan.. start dr situlah br aku usahakan IELTS, attend BTN, surat kemasukan univ, pelepasan TM dan semua tandatangan utk perjanjian.. mmg havoc sbb masa tuh jugaklah, SUKMA kt NS berlangsung.. tp aku percaya selagi kita berusaha mesti Allah akan tunjukkan jalannya dan aku amat bersyukur bln 9 2004 aku berjaya sambung study di UniS, UK.. setahun di sana, mcm2 pengalaman aku timba dan aku percaya berjaya mematangkan pemikiran aku yg masih memerlukan pengisian dalaman dan luaran.. sethn di sanalah aku menambahkan kenalan yang xkn aku lupakan sampai bila2…terima kasih, sahabat… cukup setahun, akupn tamat pengajian dan hari nih aku amat bersyukur dgn rahmat Allah yang melimpah ruah utk diriku…. Semua ini tidak akan dpt kukecapi tanpa petunjukMu ya Allah …
Hidup sekarang nih aku rasa semakin stabil walaupun masih ada ruang kosong utk penambahbaikan.. aku percaya kalo aku pray hard n play smart, segala impian aku akan tercapai.. O Allah, gimme strength to fulfill my dream.. show me the road to success and bless me with all the love I need… thank you Allah

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Hidup di dunia tidaklah panjang sgt spt zaman2 nabi Nuh dulu.. paling2 hebat 100 thn.. itupun susah nk cari yg physically n mentally fit… usually, org2 nih dh nyanyuk or x boleh use all their five senses… dats why, I think we must fully utilized and live up to our potential while we still can .. on average, Malaysian can live until 65 y.o.. minus 25 years of time to extend their knowledge, we still have about 40 years to come up wif samtin to be remembered alwizz… I know, I still have a plenty of time to plan my life.. if we use d simple calculation as above, I’ve about 39 more years to really establish maself which is not an easy task to do.. I might not have a short cut but I believe if Allah wants me to be somewhere, i’ll be there in no time..:) at d moment, I’m still serving TM as obedient as I can but i’m really feel tired with all d unnecessary thing i’ve to do rite now.. plenty of time for maself but less challenging than I tot.. last wik, I’ve attended a course in KL mainly to manage my information better.. the trainer said, it is impossible for us to manage time since too many things is urgent/important at d really unpredictable moment.. to balance this up, he said, we must manage the infos given and try to prioritize… this way, we can have an ample time to manage d less important thing while we attending more important stuff..:) it did occur to me that this thing already happening in my life now… without anyone telling me to do so, I’ve put everything except for my career at d back .. ofcoz with a certain level of mutual understanding, i will stay here in N9 until d end of next year… after that, i’ll try to sell maself out of this unit to breath a new air …:).. o Allah, hope You’ll help me to achieve everything I dreamt of…

posted by SyaHrIR at 9:18 AM | 0 Comments

Yesterday marked a new era in Malaysia as our former prime minister publicly criticizing the new PM… in his press conference, Tok Det expressing his dissatisfaction over Pak Lah’s cabinet decision mainly on the replacement bridge at Johor and Putrajaya development. Both projects have been cancelled and Tok Det really angry with the decision which was claimed to be a collective one… Urmmm, rather than being an opposition leader, Tok Det wants to continuously supporting government while making a comment to the press.. it is a good thing since nobody gonna listen to u if u r at d opposite side.. at d moment, I donno how to comment since I respect both of them in the different way.. tokdet with his unthinkable ideas and paklah with his back to d root approach.. whuteva it is, I hope both of them will sit down and discuss this matter seriously since d mission to achieve d developed country is still far ahead… :)
Today, I feel a little bit in blues.. working in one of d biggest company in Malaysia allow me to hve an ample to do anything I want.. I dun think my present here gve a big impact to my company.. with or without me, the company will survive well…:( .. I like to hve a new challenges….somebody, pliz help b4 I drowned deeper into d bottomless sea of stupidity…

posted by SyaHrIR at 8:46 AM | 0 Comments

http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/content.asp?y=2006&dt=0607&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Rencana&pg=re_02.htm very interesting discussion though.. really makes me wondering, PAS dh pn membuat anjakan paradigma di peringkat pemudanya, bilalah agaknya PAS sendiri nk wat perkara yang sama. Sblm ini, byk juga perkara telah diubah oleh Tok Guru Nik dan mendapat tentangan dari golongan fanatik agama yang kadang2 menjelikkan.. mengapa terlalu kosong bila melontarkan sbrg cadangan.. kenapa tidak disertakan dengan cadangan bernas setaraf dengan tahap pemikiran matang pemimpin lain yang seusia.. salah satu sbb mengapa PAS masih tidak mendapat sokongan penuh rakyat adalah kerana objektifnya yang makin kelam/kelabu… setiap kali pilihanraya, ada sahaja memorandum baru yang dikeluarkan mengikut percaturan sendiri… di negeri pantai timur di mana kekuatan islamnya masih tinggi pastilah tidak akan menempuh ranjau duri politik yang menyerlah.. bagaimana pula dgn gelombang politik di tmpt2 lain. Apa kah cara terbaik nk menembusi pemikiran mereka2 yang telah lama bergelumang dgn BN?? Harapanku utk melihat kedua2 parti melayu (UMNO/PAS) mungkin agak pudar ttp aku percaya ruang utk penambahbaikan sentiasa ada utk sama2 diambil peluang.. to those who r fanatic to both parties, pliz dun take my comment as a way to condemn each other party.. use it as a platform 4 u to cooperate with each other.. may Allah bless you alwizz…… :)

posted by SyaHrIR at 8:44 AM | 0 Comments

Last week is quite a frantic life I have some might say.. after 2 days of course, 1 day briefing at melaka and 2 days journey to skudai, I really feel my energy has been sucked dry .. huhuh.. but nevertheless, d njoyment really paid off… to saeed, hope u’ll live happily ever after like alwizz be chanted in d fairytales.. I hope you’ll get stronger to carry on d burden lies on top of your head now.. :D not dat I’m saying ur wife a burden u’ve to carry but it is just a mere interpretation of whut will u face in d future.. I know u can do it..:P
Kemelut perebutan kuasa di GPMS pn telah selesai.. Alhamdulillah, kedua2 pemimpin mencapai kata sepakat utk menaikkan reezal dan shuhaimi sebagai penasihat. Mungkin ada perkara di sebaliknya tetapi tidak siapa peduli memandangkan pertikaian tidak membawa faedah ini hampir-hampir menyebabkan GPMS dibubarkan. Najib sbg org tengah berasa syukur di atas sikap matang kedua2nya. Bagi aku sbg pemerhati merasakan episod cerita ini spt satu cerita buruk dan menampakkan ketidakmatangan kedua-dua pemimpin. Seharusnya objektif utama penubuhan GPMS menjadi tunjang ttp nmpaknya kepentingan peribadi dan politik masing2 telah mendahului semuanya. Sayang seribu kali sayang kerana di tika anak melayu terkontang-kanting utk menyelamatkan diri, di kala itu jugalah adanya orang yang tidak sabar2 nak pegang jawatan. Apapun, aku harapkan selepas ini kedua2nya akan buka buku baru. Ramai yang sanggup turun membantu sekiranya diperlukan..

posted by SyaHrIR at 5:23 PM | 0 Comments